When I discovered Farscape, I had never been a part of any fandom. In fact, I was still a newbie when it came to being on the Internet. So the Scaper community was strange and wonderful and completely not what I expected.

I found Farscape at the end of its third season while flipping through channels and discovered that the Good Guy of that ‘space show with the puppets’ didn’t behave like the Typical Hero (the episode I saw was ‘Til the Blood Runs Clear).  I decided to stick around for the pretty explosions, but it was later on during the season one and two marathon on the SciFi (SyFy) channel and the episode Die Me Dichotomy that sealed my love for Farscape forever.

Our family was hit with several tragic blows.  First, my uncle passed and then we lost my step-father unexpectedly. I moved in with my mom and helped her with my sister’s children as my sister’s health began to fail. I was going to school at the same time and the show gave me the right escape. It was the only thing that didn’t remind me of the problems around the house and at school.

The Scaper community was there when my sister passed away and I couldn’t say what I needed to the rest of my family who were hurting just as much as I was. I found people who listened and shared their own stories of loss and how they continued on. I had recently begun writing fanfic and used that outlet to pour a lot of pain onto the ‘page’; it was better for the character to feel it than myself (if you know what I mean).

Since then it’s given me the chance to learn how to improve my writing, graphic artistry, and my computer skills (I barely knew how to open my email when I began watching and hopped on the board between classes). The beauty of the show and listening to the DVD commentaries compelled me to learn how to edit music videos, and it’s helped me learn to pay attention to what’s really going on with the characters in a movie or television show. I have to watch a movie or show a couple times to get it all because I’m paying attention to the camera shots the first time around.

On top of all these gifts, Farscape and the online community gave me a chance to meet some of the most wonderful and insane bunch of people that I wouldn’t trade for the world. This sounds a bit out there but I can honestly say that the Farscape fandom kept me sane when I needed it the most.

So many gifts given to me – one frelling fantastic show!

Kaz Patton (Kazbaby)

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